重复的日子

我现在的生活 : 你一定不会相信 .

每天的我 ,

上班 - 下班 - 回家 - 对着电脑 - 睡觉 .

星期一到六 , 重复这种生活习惯 .

除了星期三有时看电影 ; 星期日会有羽球之外 , 没了 , 也是呆在家 .

但我看现在 , 每一天都得重复做了又做 , 没得选择 .

害怕睡觉前 , 害怕睡醒后 ..

害怕自己清醒的时候 , 害怕孤独的时候 .

我到底怎么了?

别人到了什么节日 , 都庆祝 .

我 ? 呆在家 ..

这种闷闷不乐的心情 , 很辛苦 .

很累 ..

别人总是不相信我这么乖 ,

不是我乖 , 我只是寂寞 .

我真的很不开心 !

在那一瞬间消失 .

没想到自己这么堕落 , 没想到自己这么天真 .

大家都说 ' 大家在一起开心就行了 '

原来也是篇谎话 .

天真的我 ; 自私的我 ,

竟然变得如此堕落 , 也是自己自取的 .

原来才发现自己已经不是一颗名贵的珍珠 .

得到别人的称赞也只不过是篇谎言 .

当自己上档了 , 也还不相信是真的 !

当那颗拥有安全感的心突然间被刺破了 ..

那种感受真的很想在一瞬间伤害自己 ;

好让自己安慰自己说不是真的 .. !!!

突然间看见这样的字眼 , 我真的接受不到 !

我没办法接受 !

可是到最后 , 也得忍着那份痛 ..

我的心的确破碎了 .

唯一依靠的 ,

唯一能撒娇的 ,

唯一能开心的 ..

到此统统被没收 .

心情开始像以前那样不知所措 ,

仿佛希望自己存在昏迷状态 .

不让自己有清醒的机会 !

可是我看 , 不可能 .

要我面对 , 我不敢 .

以前有什么困难一起闯 , 有什么事情一起当 .

教会我做人要乐观 , 开心 .

就在那突然间 , 消失了!

最近 ~

太久没回来了:)

最近都比较忙,没时间写 ..

我呀..最近都很乖 :D

没什么出去了,相信吗? 哈哈 .

我最近都有不同的造型 ..

就是这个 ..

比较成熟吧 ? 哈哈 ..

朋友们都说这造型不错:)

我家附近开了一间塘水店 .. 不错哦 :)

只是卖糖水和粥 ..

刚我去的时候呢 , 老板说已近没完了 :(

可是他觉得不好意思就有送东西给我们喝 ..

他店的Cappuccino 和珍珠奶茶好喝到 !!! 极点 ><"

哈哈 , 在深斋独中附近 , 但不是 Sri Botani 里面 :) .

如果有兴趣就问我咯 ..

老板说迟一点会弄 Wifi , 不错哦..

是喝茶的好地方 .. 为大家介绍一下 ^^"

我的小' Kancil ' 很不幸地刮花了..

虽然只是 ' Kancil ' , 可是蛮心痛死我 :(

就是一个花盆 .. 自己又看不见 .. 就这样伤害了 :'( ..

Airport De Garden .

Yeolde English Greentown today with my brother :D

3:02 am now , midnight of today .

Just boring and start blogging again :D

I asked my brother to out today when we were still at home around 9 something .

i told him that i was boring at home :(

haha , he said meet jerry supper together .

so we went yeolde english at greentown .

After that jerry told us that he was tired of badminton , want home and sleep =="

it made me and markiz get >_<

SO .. we planed to go De Garden have a sit there .

we went De Garden Airport together with my friend jiajia :)

hehes , we just have a seat there and listening those singer and enjoying our beer .

there was a nice place to let people relax after work .

totally failed without make-up =="

Markiz

JiaJia and i :)

Uploading picture there :D

Playing his iphone ..

What i should do there ? =="

Toilet :D

Lols , passed a day like that ~

Nights <3

Freaking sick .

ME ! i'm freaking sick right now and i'm still blogging here .

Just get some flu and cough since yesterday night :( pity me .. hees

i didn't work today , my dad told me that bank didn't open today and called me stay at home accompany mum .

i fetched my mum for lunch together just now and back home for nothing again .. bored .

i didn't eat any medicine or visit a doctor .. that's my style for natural recover back , lols .. haha

Well , i told my mum about the wild boar and it's just near my house .

i guess can say just right opposite the houses are still a oil palm jungle ~

gosh , it made me don't dare to back home late at midnight from now on ..

and we scare that those boar will get attack the guard someday ? haha , silly me @@ ..

Holiday now for hari raya , holiday bored ..

holiday now for hari raya , shop closed .

holiday now for hari raya , no place to go .

one word for chinese bleed , ' sigh '

Just stay at home and keep blogging here ? 0.o ?!

Friday got photoshooting at teluk batik , i didn't go ..

sigh ~ T.T , maybe next time :( .

I'm just waiting the time pass now , having course later .

after that meet my dude at station one and wait bear to back hometown .

tired day , freaking enjoy the happy memories before :) .

enjoy holiday all of you , end now :P

Piranha night .

I watched Piranha today , but of course not 3D lah .

Haha , ipoh's cinema 3D i have no comment :P .

this movie wasn't scary actually but i get scared by one of my friend =="

he suddenly get frightened and i get affected in twice ..

i felt this movie was just too short maybe ?

hehe , i have no idea on it ^^"

After that , on the way home ..

i saw wild boar across the road .. and it was just near my house .

I asked ' is that a dog ? NO ! , it don't have long tail ! '

gosh , i can't believe that , it is bigger and fatter then a dog man =="

I just can't get sleep .. because i'm scare .. :(

I self loving again today :P

naughty face of mine

end :P

sigh .

I felt unhappy this few day , i felt that get a lot trouble coming toward on me .

whatever in what situation , i feel hard now .

i get a lot of question marks inside my brain ..

with those word , ' should i ? , can i ? may i ? '

confused !

Some more , i hope to cry but i can't .

some times , i cried and i felt myself more worst that i couldn't be .

what's the problem suffering on me ? i don't know .

i just feel regret for myself day by day .

' what's the point to regret everyday ? '

that's no point , don't look back the history , just make it as memories .

come on girl , cheer ! Look forward to your future and keep on going to make your future brightness .

keep giving some support to myself :)

I can't sleep without some warm .

why should i sleep late in every night ?

i couldn't answer when i asked myself ..

just the word ' don't know ' can cover all the things .

' set the target you want and keep going on the target '

what's my target ?

gosh !

what i'm going to do on my future ?

been speechless in a second .

sigh .

HI :D

Actually today i'm going out with my cousin , but she told me she can't out in a second after i get all ready =="

So i called jiajia to hang out with me together , and we met up ivy at her shop in parade :) .

well , we bought a lot cheap clothes in the thai fair and some small shop ..

almost bankrupt at last ><" .

but we're happy because it is all cheap and beautiful cloth that we love .

Soh Kaka :)

Captured by Jiajia ;P

I'm the driver =="

around 6 pm , they two asked me for a movie .. PIRANHA .

i said i can't .. i'm gotta watch it on wednesday , i don't hope to watch it twice ><"

after that i fetched them go jusco to have a dinner together ..

they keep captured their self and i keep eating there :P .. haha , cheese chicken wing ..

picture will show out after upload by ivy ..

我的记忆开始越来越差了 ,
有时候我会想不起小细节 .

希望 , 我不敢再想了
我害怕失望 .

就算你有多理智的性格 , 多成熟 .
当你在一段感情里 , 你也是一样的小孩子
会耍脾气 .

就算你在一段感情里多理智 , 多成熟 .
那也只是一时的想法 .

分手 , 就像代词 .
当说了分手 , 一段感情就这样没了 .

为了一点事情 ,
不懂得迁就 , 不懂得忍让 ;
就连说清楚也不肯 ,
就以为用分手来解决 ,
值得吗 ?

如果真真的一段爱情 ,
就算大家性格不合 ,
地点不同 ,
也会去慢慢了解个人的想法与思考 .

不懂得珍惜一段感情 ,
就得去学习 .

学习去哄 ,
用平静的心情去解决 ,
问个清楚 ,
体谅 ,
忍让 ,
和互相了解 .

信任是在感情里最重要的一点 .

如多次没有好好地珍惜彼此的答应 ,
就渐渐失去了信任 ,
就会没有安全感 .

答应了 , 必须做到 .

我 , 已经不是以前的薇安了 .